i have also decided

that i am really tired of being treated like a child on this program. i am tired of so many things. i am ready to graduate and see my mom and sister. i dont want to be a negative nancy but this program has not met my expectations and am at the moment frustrated with how things have turned out. i have talked to my special friend at length about this, thank goodness there is someone here i can talk to all this about who knew me before this semester. i feel like i have to walk on eggshells around this house and watch what i say or someone will construe my words. im ready to be free!

FINISH LINE.

SO.

CLOSE.

but i really want to ENJOY my last 2 weeks of college, you know? i really really honestly want to be positive patsy and just soak it all in. i am going to try my darndest to practice what i preach.

is it sad that i have resorted to a blog to vent? i cant talk on the phone about it- someone might hear me. i would journal about it and keep it to myself but for some reason i feel sharing this bit. south africa messes with my head on a daily basis. i dont think i will come back after my time here.

best part of all this: i am so lucky this is all i have to worry about (knock on wood!!!).