Ok, so when I say that I miss fall in North Carolina, or pretty much just the Northern Hemisphere, I can’t quite explain this miss. I’ve written about it a lot in this blog, but I still feel the need to explain, even if only for myself….

I am completely thrown off. I guess 21 years of being on the same cycle does something to your body/everything. It’s like I’ve been dancing to the same beautiful drumbeat my whole life and now it’s opposite. I am trying with all of my might to hold on to any notion of autumn. It’s amazing how you can trick yourself. Last night we went to an Indian restaurant at dusk for a big dinner. The whole place was lined with windows. I totally fooled myself for a good 10 minutes, looking out the window at the evening thinking “Ooooo, its chilly outside…. Its October…. The leaves will be falling…..” Is that torturing myself?! But I found so much comfort in it! Wow. Also, the other night I tried the opposite. It was a warm evening and I made myself think “Ok, it’s early March… it’s one of those sexy spring evenings….” And I convinced myself for about 30 seconds. But I shouldn’t have to do any convincing on that end because it IS SPRING! I knew I was attached to months and seasons and dates and all things dealing with calendars (is there an adjective for that?) but DAMN I didn’t know it was this bad. It is really hard to let go of. I imagine its good for me in the long run.